Carolyn Wiger may have been up to a healthy amount of mischief in The Traitors Season 3, but she did not expect to leave the show with emotional trauma.

Sitting down with DECIDER to chat about her tearjerker banishment in Episode 9 (“A Silent Assassin”), the alum shared that in her final moments on the Peacock competition series, she was shocked to have her character examined and taken down so brutally.

“It was hard for me watching that back because it took me to that moment of like, ‘That hurt. That really hurt.’ Just the roundtable, the words that were said, it hurt me as a human,” Carolyn told Decider.

While she did not specifically call out her fellow Traitor, Danielle Reyes, for inflicting the pain, one can reasonably assume it was Danielle’s words that left Carolyn feeling jarred. At her final Roundtable, Carolyn was accused of playing “silly and dumb” by Danielle, who added of the Survivor legend, “You Forrest Gump a lot.” The negative comment immediately caught fans — and Wiger, herself — off guard, with many on social media calling the insult “nasty” and uncalled for.

Ultimately, Danielle’s argument in support of banishing Carolyn worked to recruit Faithfuls — including Dylan Efron and Britney Haynes — to vote against the Survivor player who flew under the radar the entire season. The emotional rollercoaster of a banishment led to Carolyn breaking down and tearfully admitting in the Circle of Truth that she had been playing as a Traitor the entire game.