Rapper Tyga has suffered an unimaginable loss. The “Rack City” rapper’s mother, Pasionaye Nguyen, passed away on January 18. She was just 53-years-old. He recently penned a heartfelt tribute to her on his Instagram account.

“I been trying to understand and process why God takes the most meaningful and most beautifulest people away from us. But I know I’ll never get an answer that will fill the emptiness in my heart.💔” he wrote in part, showing a series of individual photos of her and pictures with them together in a post. “Can’t imagine life without you by my side. You were the best and most supportive person in my life, you always made things better when I felt at my lowest and worst. I would trade anything just to be able to be with you again 😢 I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. and I can’t wait for the day until we’re together again🕊️🕊️🕊️ I’ll see you soon and save me a spot right next to you in paradise💜I Love you forever mom and I’ll do my best to celebrate you with every moment that I have left.”

The final slide in the post was a video of Pasionaye listening to a voicemail she left Tyga that he put in his 2012 song “Black Crowns” on the album Careless World: Rise of the Last King. She becomes overwhelmed with emotion in the clip.